Worst Day Ever

Today had to be one of the worst days of my life. And I mean worst. It started off with a terrible riding lesson. The ring was crowded, Cloud was being a bit picky and I was just completely terrible. I couldn’t keep my hands up, I couldn’t sit back and my jumping was just off completely. Millie and I were at wit’s end with each other and I felt like I just couldn’t stand her, my temper was so short. I kept thinking about how she treats me and how she treats Amy and I just got so mad. And when I get mad, I get frustrated. And when I get frustrated, I get tense. And when I get tense, Cloud gets tense and we start to fight each other. So that ended and I was like “blegh”.

Then, I went to the vet’s, expecting to have a much better time. But nooooo. There’s this new girl, Michelle, and she’s a Tech-in-Training, which means I get put on the back burner. I mean, I understand the concept. She’s working there and I’m just a volunteer. Of course she’s going to come first. They’re paying her and they need to be paying someone who’s actually doing work, not just helping out when she(I) can. So at the start of the day, I’m like “okay, this works, I’ll deal”. But as the day progresses I get to do all of like zilch work except for fetching Dr. M’s stethoscope. I held two dogs and they were at the same time. She got to help him take blood and restrain like, everything else. And just last night Doc was all like (to meh dad) “we’ve got to get her restraining more animals” and “next time she sees surgery, she should ask to take blood”. Well, guess not. I hate being so jealous, but it felt good when I was “his little prodigy”(as a receptionist coined it) and “Yawny”(as Doc coined it), but now I’m just ‘kid” or “Brooke”. Like I said, I understand that he has to put me on the back burner for a little while but it’s still kind of disappointing since I’ve only been working there for five days, today being my fifth. So I’m actually considering if I should take a step back. That way he can train Michelle, I can focus on my school work and be back there on my school breaks and stuff. But I dunno yet.

So onto Freddy/Denny. I bring him home and bring him straight to the cat genie. Then I bring him out to meet Lily and she scares the crap outta him and he hides under a dresser. He’s STILL there, hiding. So I guess he’s going back to the vet’s on Monday. Hopefully I’ll be able either to talk to Doc or just say that I have like five tests this week and say I can’t come in or whatever. Like I said, I really don’t know.

And the worst part about it is that now I’m like crying for no reason because I’m upset or jealous or whatever about Michelle and I feel so incredibly stupid because it’s a stupid thing to be crying over it. I guess I liked being the new girl that got, not babied, but everyone liked to help out or work with. Go figure. I sound so conceited and I know it, but I can’t help it. I wasn’t planning for someone that he had to train to come in so quickly and completely destroy my chances of learning anything ahead of her, because she is…how did Doc put it? Oh yeah, how could I forget? “Held to higher standards”.

Whatever.
xBrooke